I've finally seen the LIGHT !

This has been my brain for the last 6 weeks:

"Oh god, ok well, I know where I'd like to be but I'm not sure if I should be doing that first or maybe I should read that or prior to both of those things I should visit this page and subscribe to this one and then after that I'll just read this again just to be sure...OH BUT WAIT, there's no WAY i can do this, are you joking?, everyone else seems so professional, you'll be the only complete idiot and everyone will laugh at you!! And what if it doesn't work??  What are you going to do then?  You've got bills to pay! No, it's ok, just breeeathe, you'll be fine, just carry on, carry on carry on"

Suffice to say, my brain and I have not been getting on.  Usually pretty positive and I can be unstoppable when I find something I am passionate about - so why have I been fluctuating between this terror and self doubt? 

Well, I suddenly realised WHY I have been doubting myself, and I just wanted to share this hear in case anyone else out there is feeling how I have been feeling up till now.  You'll be delighted to hear that I am now 'back in the drivers seat' and rocking along like a network marketing steam-train...choo choo..and frankly, if no one else ever reads this then at least I can stand tall in the knowledge that I have taken my own advice, and trusted myself to at least TRY.  The light finally went on yesterday - and I didn't even find my Eureka moment at the bottom of a bottle of Sauvignon Blanc, it was just as if suddenly my brain and I stopped fighting and the Doubt packed up and went home.....so let me tell you what happenned...I just realised the below points.  It's not rocket science!

The annoying thing is I can quote till I am blue in the face about the power of positive thought, feeling the fear and doing it anyway, being a leader and 'the success mindset' but I'd packed all that to the back of my mind, until now...

So, here's what I have decided.

1.  Don't Get Distracted!

There is SO MUCH out there.  So much information and great ideas and advice and ebooks and blogs and lenses and ezine articles, many of them written by members of this community.  Part of the fear of feeling overwhelmed has come from the 'too much information' camp.  I wanted to get involved with everything.  I've decided that I'm going to just slow down, take a breath and realise I know enough for now....Don't get my wrong, I love learning and believe that we should be constantly trying to educate ourselves, but not to the detriment of our mental sanity!  When I discovered the power of online marketing it felt as if everything that I felt about working from home and asking myself 'There MUST be a better way' just fell into place.  But that doesn't mean that I can't learn at a steady pace and assimilate all the information in my own time.  Because that's what it's about - it's my own time and I'm not Johnny 5.

2.  Decide on a Course of Action

I have an end goal so I know where I want to be, but I hadn't made a plan of how to get there.  We all know about your why and how but  I needed to create my own personal how.  My marketing funnel has to consist of a few well written, well positioned pieces that I can then add to over time.  Also, nothing is set in stone and if I decide to change direction at some point, then I can.

3. Ask for Help

I've been in contact with people who have resonated with me and asked for help.  Working from home and owning your own business can be really lonely and I'm used to being surrounded by a miserable load of office pen pushers - it just takes some getting used to (not that I object to that at all!!!).  The fact is, I've been afraid to reach out for help - it's harder when you can't 'see' the person at the other end and it's just required a mental shift - you ARE all there after all! I've tried not to be too annoying!

4. Just Dive in

I've been proctrastinating under the guise of 'I'm still learning and I just need to read one more thing, and then maybe work on my plan a bit more...after all it's all in the planning'.  Well, yes, planning is very important, but so is trial and error and I could envisage a situation where I was getting action paralysis.  I could imagine myself as a bit of a network marketing Miss Haversham, sitting in front of my old spider-webby computer in 2067 as an ancient lady still working on the first line of my blog while the rest of the world whizzes by in spaceships.  I've been trying to work out 'who to be'...which leads me to...

4. FIND YOUR VOICE

If I'm going to be successful then I need to find my voice.  And this is really me, trying to be funny and not really succeeding while discussing a topic I am passionate about and that excites me.  Because I am excited, I am loving everything about this journey and if just one person reads this and thinks 'Ok for 5 seconds I can stop pretending I know what I am doing and just realise someone else is feeling just a little overwhelmed as well' then I'll be happy.  'My voice' likes to work hard and have fun at the same time.  Your 'voice' needs to be you, align with all your values and purposes, and make you happy.

I am looking forward to building a successful, sustainable, educational and professional business and I look forward to contributing more in the future.

In Health and Gratitude