Time: The Foundation of My Journey Into Personal Development
Even the most conscientious have asked themselves this very question: Where has all my time gone? All those moments as a kid growing up I really wanted most of that childhood to just fly by. Elementary school, high school and college just dragged on for years with no end in sight. I had no knowing that I was ever going to grow up and be able to finally enjoy my life. Now that I am older much older, time is like a runaway train with greased wheels and slick track. I can’t get the damn thing to slow down at all. As I am writing this the hours are flying by as minutes and the minutes are flying by as seconds, and the seconds are nothing more than the blink of an eye; but the words on the page are not keeping pace. It’s as if there is a disconnect between my mind and the page or computer screen as in this case. The more I try to slow time down the faster it seems to go.
I’ve listened to tapes and cds, read books and articles on success, time management, spirituality, personal development; I am sure that most of you have also. The concept of “Just Do It” just bothers me. If just doing it was that easy we would all be millionaires – or janitors; it really wouldn’t make a difference because we would all be equal. For me the challenge is to break through the inertia; it feels at times like such a heavy burden without resorting to drugs. Yes burden, something that seems beyond my control; but is it? Breaking through this inertia is the foundation of my journey into personal development. What happens when I push up against a brick wall movement stops, heart rate elevates, breathing shallows through which I try to speed up the passage of time.
This article is my giant leap you can say. It has taken me weeks to get to this point. It should take about an hour to finish right? Four days later here I am. Exploration into my mind will spring free from this platform. Where I land I have no idea and I really don’t care… well, I do care. I just want to focus on where I am now and what I am looking to convey to you. They say that if you can control your present you have the ability to reinterpret and rewrite your past and gain a clearer perspective on your future. A large part of my inner dialogue revolves around my concept of time and my personal subjective lack thereof. With all the posted ideas on procrastination I am certain that I am not the only one who has such a pervasive head chatter.
Most things can be possessed.
Like life time can only be experienced. Each moment has infinite possibilities but only one can be lived. Shall we choose to experience that singular possibility or shall we throw it away – discard it – disrespect our own sense of personal value?
You decide for yourself.